i drove to my favorite place tonight during the last hours of daylight: the old river valley near my hometown of fort calhoun. it was perfection.
i’m glad we have a creative God.
i like summer nights.
don’t forget to enjoy the summer.
goodnight.
slashdot digg reddit del.icio.us facebook technorati stumbleuponi am reminded again and again how i really know nothing and i’m not in control at all. no matter how hard i might try.
it was very evident this week.
God likes to let me know what’s going on by showing me that i have no idea what’s going on.
so i went driving tonight. it was perfect. i went all the way to standing bear lake, which is one of my favorite parks in omaha. supposedly it closes at 10, but i went in any way. i watched the sky for awhile through the sunroof and did a lot of listening and relaxing. i took the long way back. i like to watch the streetlights pass over me through the sunroof as i drive, too.
it’s cold in my room in the basement.
i really have no idea.
it’s good.
slashdot digg reddit del.icio.us facebook technorati stumbleuponthis place needs more places for one to go to late at night without having to worry about a time that it closes or a cop getting suspicious.
i want to drive in my car to a peaceful place, and sit in my car and find a peaceful state of mind. then i can finish all my thoughts that i only get through half-way at any other place during my day.
is that too much to ask?
slashdot digg reddit del.icio.us facebook technorati stumbleuponkings of leon’s new cd, ‘because of the times’, is spending a lot of time ingraining itself into my summer.
and it’s a good thing.
i cannot say enough about my love of summer. i am working the days and spending my evenings with my friends and family, and also my car. i’ve been going on drives almost every night with the sunroof open and all the windows down. i’ve probably killed 196,382,043.26 bugs with my windshield, but i like to think they were sacrificed for a good cause.
i have an important meeting at Gallup tomorrow about my future. i will explain more afterwards if you’d like to know. this could define what this fall as well as the rest of the summer looks like for me.
i don’t know what will happen. but the possibilities are good.
goodnight.
slashdot digg reddit del.icio.us facebook technorati stumbleuponwindows keep falling on me
i can’t get onto my feet
the wind that blows through the screens
seems to say something about me.
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these are just some words. i don’t really know what they mean, but i started singing them. maybe they’ll mean something to you.
slashdot digg reddit del.icio.us facebook technorati stumbleuponi like nebraska.
some people hate it. some people live here anyway.
but i like it.
the view of the sky is really something. and the drives out in the country are worth every penny of gas and more.
i spent another night driving. basically all evening. and, well, we live in a beautiful world. God is so incredible to give us such a breathtaking view.
please don’t forget the beautiful views all around you. too often we do.
i’m working full time again, and i’m loving it. i don’t really feel like going back to school in the fall at this point. i have an amazing job and opportunities are surfacing that i didn’t think would for several years at the earliest.
my room is built. i am somewhat moved in. i live in a basement and it’s nice and cool down here. i have a black cement floor and plywood walls on one side and cement walls on the others. i plan on covering a lot of the plywood with random photos and images.
i have changed. i’m still changing. it’s good to be back. i like my friends. i like my family. i am so thankful that God has put you in my life.
i am going to go to bed now. goodnight.
you are loved.
slashdot digg reddit del.icio.us facebook technorati stumbleuponthere is a streetlight outside
that is giving the green leaves
an orange tint in the darkness.
and i’m wondering what i’m doing again.
my heart is reaching for something
trying to say a word that i don’t understand.
what is it, and why can i not be at peace?
my emotions hold me tightly
as i slowly fall into sleep
to the ambience of the orange tinted leaves
fighting with the wind.
slashdot digg reddit del.icio.us facebook technorati stumbleuponi don’t know what to do.
i see all these beautiful things. i want to use them all.
i want to use the typography on the binding of an old book. i want to use the shapes printed on a box. i want to use the graph of the metro north railroad arrival times. i want to use all of my old sketchbook pages. i want to use every single photograph i see. i want to use the napkins from different restaurants.
the problem is, i don’t want to ruin them, but i want to keep them and organize them somehow.
i could keep a sketchbook and paste all of these visual things in there, but i don’t think i could bear it, since i have so much respect for the space they are surrounded in.
i could keep a binder full of plastic sleeves and fill them with these visual things, but plastic sleeves just ruin everything.
it’s frustrating. i want to be able to organize these things i see, and make new designs and images from them, but i don’t know how. there’s too much to organize.
maybe i’ll just spend the rest of my life documenting the visual things that grab my attention. but i don’t know how to document them!
it’s driving me crazy.
i go through all of my folders from parsons and even earlier, and i love every single half finished print, sketch, photo, and layout that i have. so much that it kills me to put them back in the folder. but i don’t want to cut them up, or pin them on the wall because i think “someday i’ll use this”.
maybe photography is the answer.
maybe i could take photos of everything, even photos. then i end up completely respecting everything i see, and leave it in its environment.
i don’t know.
it’s just been on my mind.
by the way, i’m home.
and i have my own room.
i’m still moving in, but i am just sitting on my bed enjoying it.
i’ll see you soon.
slashdot digg reddit del.icio.us facebook technorati stumbleuponmy bags are packed.
today: i go get my jetta, and drive her into the city to pick up my stuff.
tonight: i drive way uptown to stay at my uncle steve and aunt beverly’s place for night.
saturday: i drive from new york city to akron, ohio. 7.5 hours. stay the night at my uncle loren and aunt margy’s place.
sunday: i drive from akron, ohio, to omaha, nebraska. 12-15 hours. stay at my new place with my new roommies.
monday: enjoy the good life.
happy summer everyone. drink up the sun.
for those of you in nebraska, i will see you very soon.
for those of you in new york, i will miss you very very soon. i don’t think i can stay away from here for that long. i will probably be back. so, cheers!
my homework is finished. all of my projects from parsons the new school for design are finished.
i think i’ll go fly now.
i feel like i could.
i just survived two semesters (nine months) at one of the most intense design schools in the world. i can’t believe it. i’m still breathing. i’m still alive.
and being alive is good.
